Sunday, May 18, 2008

Today marks a great day in my life for me. One year ago today I followed God's leading and went back to Burlington Bible Methodist Church. Prior to this I had been searching for a church but avoiding that church specifically. I didn't want to feel pressured to be one or the other but God gently led me and showed me his plan for my life.

I remember as clearly as if it was today. I was hungering for a deep relationship with the God and I wanted to know what his voice sounded like. The church I was attending(sort've) was featuring a women's book study in regards to discerning the voice of God. I desperately wanted to attend. I though for sure this would give me answers I needed and I check my schedule. I prayed for the Lord to work it out for me but it just never did. I was really dissappointed and thought how am I to know how to discern the voice of God if no one tells me how to do this. Strangely enough I was raised in a holiness family were do the will of God was paramount but because of the fact I had strayed so far and so long I had forgotten how. I continued to pray for guidance and would'nt you know God answered my prayer. I had decided to find a church more suitable to my needs and believed a deeper relationship than the one I was attending. I felt impressed to attend a Nazerene church here in town and for some reason I felt that I was going to learn something about friendship, in what way I did not know. I didn't realize God was already speaking to me. In the meantime a women I know invited me to attend her church, another Nazerene church in the same little town, at first I said yes but then I started thinking that maybe I should not go because I really felt like I was supposed to go the other church. I called her back and explained to her why I could not go with her. She was understanding, to say the least. I though, people are going to think I am just plain crazy especially if this does not turn out the way I felt it would. Well, Mother's Day dawned bright and clear and me and the kids set out to go to church. I had already decided that if we were going to do this we would go for sunday school too and so we went. I helped the girls get settled in their class and Alex wanted to stay with me. I women in the church showed me to a class she recommended for me. Everyone was very and greeted me warmly. The sunday school teacher preceded to start the lesson and explain what we would be talking about, " past friendships", did you see that. Friendship, I was about blown out of the water. God was speaking to me, I didn't need to take a class on how to discern the voice of God. If you are willing and truly desire a close walk the Lord he will lead and guide you. That following week I was driving down the road and plain as day, I heard, "now I want you to go back to Burlington". My response, "ok". One year ago today driving to the church was wonderful and a little fearful too. What would people say? As I turned into Rogers Lane the presence of the Lord was overwelming tears ran down my face. I felt as if I was returning home. I will never forget that day. Sis. Stetler saw me sitting in the back when she came and with tears in her eyes she told me I was an answer to prayer. I remember telling her that a lot of prayers had been answered for me to be there.

God has been so good to me this year and I look forward to many more to come doing his will. Has the road been hard, does satan fight me, you better believe it. I have days when I am down and days when my cup runneth over. The Lord has given be salvation and sactification to keep me going on the right road. With out the Holy Spirit I would have given up months ago. I know there are many women who are in my same situation having an unsaved husband. Only God knows the extent of the pain we bare. My husband was not raised in a Christian home so he does not even know what it is that has happened, I hope he can feel a difference in the spirit of our home. Our life is much more peaceful on one end but satan uses my husband to try and bait me to turn back to the old carnal ways. God's grace is sufficient, I am so thankful for that.

I ask that you pray not just for me but think of all the women out there who are trying to pray in unsaved husbands and fight against satan's weapons, lift them up in prayer. God will help and I am trusting him that my husband will oneday realize the beauty of the Gospel of Jesus Christ.


Kelly S said...

And what a blessing it has been for me to watch you grow spiritually! The Lord has made a beautiful change in you! You are an inspiration to me and I am so proud of you!

fayfamily said...

Bev, I am sitting in a room with a patient and am reading your blog about to cry, God is Good- all the time. I will pray for you Love you always, Kim

Patty said...

It is wonderful to have you as a part of our church and to hear your up to date testimonies of how the Lord is helping you.
We love you and it would not be the same without you!

Steve, Melissa, Abigail, Joel and Ryan said...

Hey, Bev! I'm so glad you are doing so well. You are in my prayers. We need to get together again soon!

Linda said...

I am so glad you are part of our church!!